This memorial website was created to remember our dearest Troy Robert Speed who was born in Australia Warrawong on October 11, 1977 and passed away on October 19, 2007 at the age of 30. You will live forever in our memories and hearts.
That first day we met on 7/7/01, both our lives changed forever..I know it was fate that we met that day.Never have I loved or felt a love as deep as the one we shared.I have so many memories of the happy times we shared together.We had such an instant, intense connection.You moved in with me after a week.I met you on the Saturday night and then we went on our first date the next night.We played the horses at Wests and gave each other funny looks when we picked the horses with names with double meanings .Then after our date we went back to your aunties and got your bags and I bought you home with me. You caught the train with me to sydney and we had our lunch date down at Darling Harbour.You brought Ham cheese & Tomato focaccia's and cans of V.I knew that day when you walked away you were special.We were so sad when I said I was going away to Adelaide for the weekend to visit Astrid.But after that lunch date, I messaged you and asked you to come too.You were so happy I asked. You booked a flight straight away.We had an awesome time that weekend with Astrid, did a pub crawl and got lost in the King size bed she had.You sang Ben Harper - Another Lonely Day that satuday night in adelaide.I will never forget it.I think we fell in love that weekend.You told me when you got back that weekend that you had no money and could you stay with me, and that was it.You moved in.We lived at dad's for about 2 months and when we got Minx, we had to get a place on our own.That's when we moved to thirroul.We moved right in and made it our home.Doesn't matter that we painted it alll bright colours without asking.We didn't care. That house had lots of good time and memories
The night we bought Minx home to join our family,we didn't think twice.Then we got a kitten!!Even though you "hated" cats you loved Buster with all your heart.We both cried when we had to adopt him out, and you always made plans to kidnap him when we got home
The long horrible train journeys to work each morning, somehow were made fun when we did them together.3 years we travelled to Sydney together.Every friday you met me on the train station with a bunch of flowers, even though the train would zoom past and rip all the petals off. You'd always collect a bag of presents during the week. Random gifts you thought I would like. You save your lunch money every day to pay off a watch with a diamond in it. Engraved on the back were the words, " You are my sunshine", the song you sang when you rang me.You used to wake me every Sunday morning at 1am to say Happy Anniversary to me. The exact ime we met that first night. You wrote me such beautiful cards and poems and the pictures you drew me were straight from your heart.I still have the picture you drew me, in my wallet, when I was flying home to visit Wollongong from Darwin.There was dreadlock stick man waving and crying at the Kombi, as the plane flew overhead.I have so many letters where you shared your heart with me.Bub I know you had the hugest heart, I really do.You were so special.
You were so talented too, monkey boy in the trees...I don't know how you did it, but you had a special talent that was so impressive.People stood in awe watching you work.And it came so natural to you. You were hippy tree hugger, who worked with nature which you loved
The weeks stretched into years and when we decided to pack everything up and go travelling, everyone expected us back in a few months.We lovingly did up the old Poombi, that we made into our home for our travels.We just took off into the unknown.That's what I loved so much about you.We were partners in crime and were so alike.I have never shared everything completely with someone until I met you.We collected shells on the beach at Maroochydore , and you ate your whole way up the coast until you looked like you were pregnant.We had to leave Minxy behind for 6 months but she was in good hands.I know she was fretting without us.We thought we would only be a couple of months and we would pick her up.How happy were we when she arrived on the flight with me? We were our little family again
I don't know if I will ever be able to go back to Bali.You took me there for my 30th birthday and we went there another 2 times.Although it was so stinking hot, we always went for Indian for dinner and sweated our heads off eating curry.You weren't afraid to conquer the mopeds with the mixing bowls for a helmet.You were the daredevil and I was always the party pooper in the background being sensible...I still don't know if you spiked my drink that night you bugger, maybe I was just too drunk....You bartered everything, we left once with 10 pair of beaded thongs and sandals for $20.I only wanted 1 pair, but you wanted the challenge.Somehow we managed to come through customs with 10 wooden penis bottle openers.Imagine my embarrasment explaining to customs that I wasn't weird!!!!!! You took me off for a walk on my birthday, and when we got back there was a bath full of rose petals and a cake & candles. You were so romantic and thoughtful. Amazing
All the bands we saw together...John Butler, Ben Harper, Incubus, RED HOT CHILI PEPPERS.The music just plays over and over in my head.I found so much comfort in the cd's you made for me.Every song meant something.I look at the songs you put on those cd's and it shows how deep and and sensitive you were.I bought tickets for us for John Butler your first birthday we were together in 2001....We went up to the Central Coast to watch him.And that was the first of many times. You were my John Butler. From that first day when you got in my car, and I had Soul to Squeeze playing on a cassingle!!!!It wayou avorite song, ad it was like a sign. We shared a love of music, and you even let us combine our cd collection after 2 years together! You were such a sensitive caring person.Sometimes misunderstood and maybe a reason to be.But all you wanted was to be loved.I loved you more than you could imagine but no matter how many times I told you, you didn't seem to hear me..I honestly truly did bub.
Troy, I don't know how I am going to go on without you.You were my best friend and although sometimes you didn't think so, I loved you so much.I was just waiting,hoping,praying for you to get better.I tried with my whole heart to help you..You know I did.Don't ever think it wasn't hard for me.I wish for anything that things were great and we got back to normal.I always thought we would grow old together.Just 2 old hippies telling their grand kids about all their adventures.I so wanted to have our babies cause I knew you be such an awesome dad.Just like the fantastic god father you were to Kiara and Zaine.And the Uncle you were to Marley.Carla still talks about you taking Marley for icecreams and picking flowers on the way home to give to her.And Kiara and Zaine will grow up and will miss out on the love you had for them.You were amazing
I know there were ups and downs, but you know that I was always there for you no matter what.I had faith in you.Although you drove me crazy, like I drove you crazy too.Our bond never ever broke...It still hasnt. Ive never experienced a love like you showed me, and I will never ever forget it. Nobody can take away all the memories and good times we shared together.Only you and I lived our life together and no-one can come close to even understanding what we went through together.I don't care anymore what people have to say.I am suffering every single day without you around.You were the one person in this world that truly loved and cared deeply for me.And there is now just a hole left behind.I don't want to grow old without you here too
All I can do is cherish the memories that we have.Because my love for you will never die.The day you died, my heart died too..I just wish with my heart and soul that you were here.Just to give you a hug or at least say goodbye.There are so many questions I want to ask...I don't want time to heal the pain, I want you to be here now
I love you Manchon head, ant's head on an elephants body.... I hope you are looking over me and Fez.And Minx is looking after you to.And Troy, I know you are not in that wall at the crematorium.I'm sorry not everyone got to say goodbye. This is my goodbye to you. Everyday is such a struggle for me, I just can't let you go, you were my world and it's just too late now to tell you.You are free now.I Love You. bye bye gorgeous
